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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 12:22

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I will be 64.

One cannot live in the past .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Ive learnt so much.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I think the readers, may guess!

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Would this be the day?

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Who then, do I blame.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Have you ever been spanked in front of a group of people?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She married twice! .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I was seconnd youngest,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But ive been too sick for many years..

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But it wasn’t much.

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

This is soul school!.

So, i spoilt her more .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So whats the point in blame.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

What did i know ?

Especially a lifetime of it.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Im still living with it.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Put me off passion for life!!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was very sick at this time too.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She found it foreign!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I have no regrets .

I waited trembling.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But, we were locked up after school.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

It was going to be , some day.

She wouldn,t have been !

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

All the time i was locked up.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We all went to grammer schools

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I said to her

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

We were not on the streets..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why did i forgive my father ?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She loved him until the end.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He knew the spot.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was scared of men, in general

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was in good health!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was 9 years of age.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My life is so biszare .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Comes on , in middle age.

When she asked me how she looked .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I don,t even have a pension.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And i lived it daily.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .